Things haven’t been good here in maintenance land. To be honest, it is all my fault that things came to this in the first place.
The running.
Transparency here, even if it is in hindsight. I started running because I was sick of being 150 something. I thought that if I wasn’t frozen at 143, my lowest weight, I was a failure.
So I ran.
The problem was that I didn’t go as slowly as I should have, and began pushing myself too much. {I see a pattern…}
Going from 0 to 5K in one month wasn’t enough. I decided to train for a 10K in two months. And then my knee told me my pushing was too much.
If I hadn’t pushed, then I would have been able to keep working out, but my injury was so bad that walking was a challenge. Where did all of my OCD pushing get me?
No workouts for better than two months. Depression over my idiocy. Depression eating. Tight pants. 163 pounds.
Isn’t that sweet??
I have dreaded writing that number.
My first reaction was to do Atkins. I know what it does to me, but I was desperate.
I’m an idiot.
The plan? The real plan?
Live life, enjoy my family and do my workouts. I’m logging my calories into my “My Plate” app. even when I eat my biscuit cinnamon rolls.
Failure is only failure when I stop trying.
In 2013, I am setting a goal of 150. If my body sticks at 155 again, and I look feel great in my jeans, I am going to try to let it go.
No quick fixes here, just hard work. More on the workouts I have been “Sticking With” next week.
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Sam Kelley
Wife to one and mom to six. I love my Lord, my family, organizing and fitness. I'm a homeschooler who takes pictures obsessively. I love good tea. I don't eat meat.
This was a brave post. I’ve heard people say maintenance is harder than taking the weight off. As much as I want to get to goal I know that that will not be the end….and it kind of scares me. Thanks for being so open about your journey.
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It is harder! I was on a roll in my ten month journey, and the weight just kept rolling. This is soooo much harder, especially when my body naturally likes a few extra pounds! I have my workouts scheduled for the whole 9 weeks of this program I am on, and it is tough!
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i have gained nearly 40 lbs back over the last several years. I am really working on being more active and tightening up my food. I have hurt myself too and I haven’t been back up to par for 2 years, so take it easy and don’t overdo it. Let yourself heal otherwise you will be like me and struggling to deal with it all the time.
Thanks, Vickie. :) I am listening to my knee while doing the martial arts stuff, but running is the only movement that bothers it at this time. {fingers crossed}
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Hi, Sam! Thanks for the encouragement and invite to your Saturday link up! I’m hoping to join you, Lord willing. Keep up the great work! :)
Blessings,
traci
xoxo
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You CAN do this!!! I hope to see you around!!
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You are doing excellent, even though things are not the best right now! You have great health/fitness goals and you’ll get there again. Just get that knee healed up and keep eating healthy and definitely keep enjoying your family! I’ve been trying to do that more lately. Time is going so fast and my kids are going to be grown up before I know it! Anyway. . . that’ll be a blog post some time soon! lol
Have a blessed New Year!
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Thanks, Emily! I have been working out in the morning, which has been great for family time when I get home from work!
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Sam,
YOU are such an inspiration! I tend to be an all or nothing (OCD or crash, lol). My number got “down” to 163 (breaking to the 150 something would have been a goal), and am back up in the ’70′s (ugh). So, I to am trying to face where I am at and choose where I want to be headed. Running is a dream (goal) to me, so thank you for reminding me to.go.slow. Lead the way, I will tag along~ *smile*
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I will try to ease back into running, but I will wait until I have finished this nine-week martial arts program. {Which I am LOVING!!}
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Thanks for your transparency! I am working on my weight loss journey and it is SO hard! You are such an inspiration!
Thank you. I was dreading this particular transparency, but I knew it was needed! Good luck!
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Sam,
Don’t be so hard on yourself! Moderation is the key! Yes, it does sound like you were off and running too much, too soon. But don’t give up! As your body heals, begin moderate exercising again. I hope that you are able to run again (there is nothing as satisfying as a long, slow run). But build up slowly!
As far as your weight goal goes. You know there is no substitute for healthy eating! Eat the healthy stuff, and don’t let yourself be hungry.
I wish you all the success you desire in 2013.
I love your focus word: give. I also love the button! I still have not chosen my word! I cannot decide. There are too many things in my life that need work and focus. Ha! I am about to do my Bible reading for today, and I plan to ponder as I read and then pray for a focus word. I want to work on what the Lord needs me to work on this year.
Hang in there Sam! :)
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I am definitely back to hardcore fitness, but the running motion still bothers me. Maybe when this nine weeks is over?? Thank you, friend!
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